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March 27, 2007
Still Here
Some thoughts I've been pondering:
Why do I want a fairy tale? I want the Happily Ever After that fairy tales and movies have taught me. This is not Biblical. Why am I disappointed when I relearn over and over that life here on earth is not a fairy tale.
I miss doing what I've been called to do: teach. How can I teach again? I miss it, and I'm restless and dissatisfied because I'm not doing my call.
I've missed my female friends. I have cell phone for 1) Mom and 2) Sister and email for 3) SiL and 4) my friend who just moved to Dallas (I miss you but I looooove that you are so happy. Keep glowing) in addition to 5) various other friends who are moving back from overseas. But I miss sitting down for coffee or in the Great Hall with a girlfriend and having a heart-to-heart. AND I didn't know I missed it so much until a friend of mine from college days called me up last week and we picked up RIGHT where we left off. I'm so glad she is back. I also didn't know how much I missed it till all the ladies in my church had a Dinner Out to honor one of our own who's moving to South Carolina (or maybe NC. Whatever...she's moved to Carolina) and I sat at the table that had all the Younger Ladies who Aren't Married (that is, they are [save one] college age or younger). But they're fun and young and I like them and being fun with them. The point of this paragraph is in the first sentence: the thesis. I miss female companionship. Where are all my girl friends?
I love the weather but the pollen and smoke are wreaking havoc on my poor immune system and its hypersensitivity to allergens. Plus my car is yellow. Ick. I hate to touch it.
I love the feeling of empowerment I get from a day in which I was productive. The productive days don't seem to come unless I stick closer than sap to my planner. It's my best friend, now.
Got to go, the Dude needs my (professional) help.
| By The Newest Worker | 07:00 PM
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